' lil Wayne -

2007-09-04T02:37:00.000-07:00

I'm over at my lil girl's place.. She's sleeping, leaving me alone >:(
" wake me up at four, i want mcdonalds breakfast! " No, I'm not going to >:D

Dearest lil girl, I love you, I really do (:

2007-08-29T02:42:00.000-07:00

what do i have to do to get inside of you, to get inside of you

cos i love the way you move, when i'm inside of you

I miss my #1 girl :( She's the sweetest thing on Earth, I swear. The hottest too 8)

I can't get to sleep, there's hairdressing tomorrow, which is something that I'm looking forward to. I'm looking for a new school, my mom just sacked my current one. But David's really good..

Leslie's more like a sales promoter.. Jonathan's always eating.. They're just, weird. I still prefer Andrew, ugh.

2007-08-23T23:58:00.000-07:00

will you won't you, be the one i always know

when i'm losing my control, the city spins around

you're the only one who knows, you slow it down

What's mine is your's to leave or take
What's mine is your's to make your own

VivoCity with my girl, bud, & bell on Saturday.. A dozen of doughnuts for my girl (: Dinner, snacks & desserts with cigarettes. Went to pool, then to prawn after Baby left. Went over to Baby's place after that. Slept all the way till 1pm. Went out to buy some stuff, back home to bake. She's a happy girl when she gets to bake :D Home in the night.

Tuesday, my sweet lil girl bought me food and brought it all the way to my place & left right after she passed them to me :D Thank you, you this sweet lil fella :D

Hairdressing on Wednesday, loving it. Dinner with Florence after that, then home.

(Thursday, today)
Met Mel, Laode & friend came, we all got really drenched, even with umbrellas. Dinner, then to somewhere to slack. Went home at nine something.

This just... Explains everything

2007-08-15T23:05:00.000-07:00

Let me be the one who calls you baby all the time
Surely you can take some comfort knowing that you're mine
Just hold me tight, lay by my side

Take a look at my girl, don't you think she's fucking cute? :D I'm very proud to own her, heehee!

I met my lil girl yesterday for lunch/dinner after school. Just look at how happy she gets when she gets her ice cream.. Aww :D I love you lil one (: Sent my lil girl back home, met Mel for a lil while before heading home.

Hairdressing today, it was quite alright.. Smoke breaks were the best (sorry baby!) Headed home right after school. Next lesson on Friday :D I really want hairdressing every single day but I've got school, ugh. School's been fine so far so its alrighttt.

Yesterday was me & Baby's 11th anniversary :D Happy 11th, my dearest girl (:

I miss you terribly, I can't wait to see you. I love you, & you know it right? I'll always be here for you to fall on. You don't have to worry about anything and everything with me around cos I'll always love you & protect you with all my might (: Girl, you mean everything to me & I don't ever, ever want to lose you again. I Love You (:

I found my place in the world & stare at your face for the rest of my days

Let me be the one who never leaves you all alone, hold me too tight & stay by my side

2007-08-12T18:24:00.000-07:00

love sex & cigarettes

my lady, my bitch

I'm back with my girl, that lil fella :D We've been shopping & eating a lot.

I've been pretty busy as my schedule for monday to friday is packed!

& I'm only getting busier, that means lesser time for my girl ): Sorry baby.

Finally got to meet up with buddy (: 33 months, Bud :D

I love you, lil cuckoo (:

I want to hold your little hand

& be your right hand man till your hands get old

2007-08-05T17:06:00.000-07:00

Carve your heart out yourself

Hopelessness is your cell

& you can't fake it hard enough to please everyone, or anyone at all

Thursday, headed to town with Mel & Steph. Met up with the rest at Spinelli's.

Went to Tantrics in the night, had a couple of drinks. Blue Spin's the killer.

I don't know what the hell we did but I ended up at home. Thankyou Steph for sending me home! (:

Friday, town then to Play with quite a number of people.. Met up with the rest there :D Bought jugs, played guessing games & all that kind of shit.

Danced all the way to three & it was fucking hot, one of the best nights ever :D

Supper after that then home.

Saturday, town to meet Calli. Went to look for Kenneth & Andrea at Far East.

Mel came, saw Laode :D Went to Skatepark to meet Anzai & co after that.

There were to many skaters so we drove to Boon Lay's skate park.

Skated & all, Zai sent me & Mel to Maxwell. Got our supper, back to Mel's place for some DVDs.

Supper was really goood. Left her place at five.

2007-07-31T23:59:00.000-07:00

There'd be torn up photos every night
Cursing, crying & drawn out fights
Make up sex & a brand new start

Please don't touch me, I've come too far to let you bring me down

School was alright, just that I left earlier for home.
Went to get some things in the night with sissy, then we left to look for Mel & - :D
Had dinner with sissy while waiting for Mel & -.
Stayed there for a lil while, then left for home.

Hairdressing tomorrow :D I don't think I'll ever, ever get bored of it (:

2007-07-30T23:00:00.000-07:00

To feel you all around & to take your hand along the sand, I might as well try to catch the wind

Love was the sweetest thing

Saturday night was good, we were full of plans & stuff.

Mox for some drinks with Mel & Clare, to meet Clare's friends.

The martinis were realllyyy good, free flow from the bartender Leon :D

Play after that then to Mel's place. Had our Macs supper & watched our favourite skating videos. Got really tired so I left for home.

Skating on Sunday with Mel, dinner with Bud after that.

these pills aren't working anymore
my guts are spilling out onto the fall

2007-07-23T23:59:00.000-07:00

i want domination, i want your submission

i see you're not resisting to this temptation

i've got one confession, a love deprivation

i've got a jet black heart & its all fucked up & falling apart

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, my lil Babygirl :D

Saturday, had a pre celebration for Baby together with Sally, Stan, Grace, Min Hui, this guy, Bud & Bell! :D I met Bud & Bell first to get cake, tulips & movie tickets! Flowers from Paragon really sucks.

Met the rest + Baby at Fish & Co, passed Baby all her presents :D

Had seafood & all, then the celebration began. The whole crew sang birthday song for my lil baby and she was really freaked out. Heehee, I hope you're happy with that though you felt really embarrassed! The rest of them left after that. Took neos with Baby then we left for our movie. After the movie, we went to Coffeeclub for coffee. Arcade for some games with Baby (: Another movie after that, heehee. Went to Maestro after that for supper, then to my place (:

Baby then went home the next day.

Today, it's officially Baby's birthday :D

Met her after my school at Vivo. Went for dinner then to coffee club for fondue. I got two pairs of havaianas for me & Baby. Saw Mel, we were disturbing her the whole time, haha. Then met her for her toilet break. Baby came over, then left after awhile ):

Happy Birthday, my lil pamper girl :D

Its really great to be able to spend your lil birthday with you (:

I hope your enjoyed it like how I enjoyed mine with you.

We'll have many more birthdays to celebrate with each other, right? Hee.

My world is all about you, everything's about you. I love you, Babygirl (:

Last Thursday, I met Bud then I went to get things for Baby! Went to look for Von at Esplanade after that. Had a drink at Harry's, talked then left for home. It was great seeing you & talking to you, Laode :D

Last Friday, I went for my hairdressing lesson at 9plus am. Baby came to meet me for lunch during my break. She left after that, then I had lessons all the way until 6pm. Met Dee & her gf then went to Amara Hotel for reservation of hotel but I cancelled it in the end. Met Von & Cj after that to get Baby's things! The whole day they were talking about how stupid I was two years back running straight into a pillar :/ We almost had abs after that, like what Von said, haha. Headed home after midnight.

Baby's going to run to me tomorrow after she gets out of her school! :D Heehee, what a cute lil thing :D I loveee you.

2007-07-17T22:00:00.000-07:00

lovers hand in hand just to numb the pain

drugs or me

Last friday

Shopping at Vivo with Baby

Central then Clarke Quay after that

Baby slept over & I drank a lil

Saturday

Harry Potter with my family & Baby

Home early, B slept over again

Happy 10th my lil pamper babygirl :D

You mean the world to me, girl.

You were there for me to whine & complain,

you were always there & I know you'll always be! :D

I love you.

Monday

School as per normal, I've got new teachers!

Andrew's nicer still ):

Today

School then home.
I'm QUITE excited for tomorrow cos I'm starting my lessons in Pivot Point Hairdressing school :D
So I'll be rather busy, I'm sorry Babygirl, you know that I love you (:
No Baby, sad me :( I miss you like crazy, I can't stand it :(
Argh :(

2007-07-08T19:29:00.000-07:00

if i could then i'd

shrink the world tonight

so that i would find

you and me inside

Friday,

Die Hard 4 with B & B's bro Fred

Dinner at Beauty World

Fred drove above 120 & we wanted to die

Slept over at B's place

PS the next day

Then to Giant at Vivo

Bought groceries & went home to cook

Bb left after a short while ):

I've been spending almost everyday with my Babygirl (:

I'll never get enough of my girl.

She's my sweetest drug, my cute lil thing (:

I love you girl <3

I'm your man & you're my lady.

2007-06-28T20:38:00.000-07:00

get all the sighs and moans just right

Clarke Quay last night & returned home at 5 am.

I found a new spot! Thank you Jie (:

Missed school today cos I wasn't feeling that well & I was too tired

I'm going to Clarke Quay later on to meet Bud (:

you walked away, not me

2007-06-17T01:00:00.000-07:00

a warm embrace, it's been a while

since i've seen your pretty face

if you'll let me

i don't think i'd ever leave this place

every shared night just feels so right

when i wake up with you in my arms

staring into my eyes

From the moment I met you I just knew you'd be mine
You touched my hand and I knew that this was gonna be our time
I dont ever wanna lose this feeling,
I don't wanna spend a moment apart

My babygirl left s'pore last thursday ( our 9th month anniversary ): ) Happy 9th, Babygirl (: I love you.

Let me tell you all a lil about us, or rather, her (:
My lil Baby's a fucking adorable thing & she's really hot. I'm really glad that she's mine.
She's a great girlfriend who gives in to me most of the time, & she pampers me A LOT, really A LOT. Just like how I pamper her too, hee. & I have to say that she's really a sweet girlfriend who always gives me surprises, doing all kinds of sweet lil things for me. I greatly appreciate all of the things that she has done for me. She's always trying get get my attention by whining. Sometimes I just can't stand it cos she's really fucking adorable (: & I really don't ever want to be without her, she's all I've ever wanted, she's everything that I need. We've been together for 9 months, & we're going stronger each day. I don't ever want to lose this feeling, this love. Her touch, her kisses & her everything. Come what may, I'll never leave her alone. You know I'll always be here.
I think about her day & night, she never left my mind, & she never will. I love you Babygirl.

I miss you so much ):

a simple touch, the look in your eye
the sound of your voice
they do something to me i've never felt
& i don't ever want to leave

2007-06-16T23:59:00.000-07:00

Everyday that I'm here with you,

I know that it feels right,

& I just got to be near you every day and every night

& you know that we belong together,

It just had to be you and me

Baby, I miss you so fucking much, please come back NOW ): Its only the third day, oh man, sigh ): Bb, bb.. Bb... B.. b.. Bbb... Bb. B... Bbbbbbbb ):

Anyway,

on Friday, I went to meet Bud after school in town. Talked a lot & she accompanied me to shop. I only bought a top in the end. Went to Rocky's after that, slacked around & I got my sissy to bring my deck down. Went to look for my JianQing, Gary & all at Dhoby there. Skated only a tiny lil bit & I sprained my wrist a lil. Went home after that.

Saturday, (today)

I went out with mommy. OUT WITH MY MOMMY ON A SATURDAY. Okay nevermind about that. I was being so fucking grumpy cos I was so hungry & I had to wait for my sissy to come before we could eat >:( & she took so long to come! & that made me shout at her.. Hee. Had dinner at this restaurant then went shopping after that. Couldn't find the shorts that I want so I became grumpy again. Bought a top in the end & I got happier. Sissy left then I brought mommy to starbucks, & I treated her, heehee. Sat there for quite some time before going home. My mommy kept trying to hold my hands whenever I was beside her. This happens all the time... Haha. Came home & I did housework cos I had nothing to do, then I bathed my cute lil dogs (: Bb I know you want to bathe them too! Cos they're so so so adorable :D So hurry come back Bbb.. Nowww ): Anyway, just take good care of yourself yeah? I love you (:

Oh & I've decided to pierce somewhere below my eye, & its going to be so pretty (: Okay, when my Bb comes back! :D

2007-06-06T23:59:00.000-07:00

she makes the hairs on the back of my neck stand up with just one touch

& i don't know what i'd do if i were to lose your touch

I’m so addicted to how she’s the sweetest drug

My mom booked a chalet for my birthday, on 21st (: Thanks to baby if not my mom wouldn't be able to book it. & thank you baby for getting me the RL wallet & NUM bag :D I love them both very much (: Thank you for every lil thing you've done for me, I love you.

Met beee last friday & studied at starbucks for quite some time together with B. buddy came after awhile. Went over to B's place after that & stayed over :D Went to town the next day & met buddyy (: Rocky's then spinelli. Left quite early for home then buddy went to club.

Monday,
school, then went to NTUC with my sissy & bought a lot of things. Baked cake & made sushis for B (: Surprised her the next day at 7 am with those & mac's breakfast (: Stayed over & B sent me to school today :D Thank you baby. (i just baked another cake & its yummy (: ) (its for my b anyway)

( I want a piercing somewhere below my eye & a few more lip piercings.. )

2007-06-06T02:59:00.000-07:00

Josephine Chloe Ong Wei Yu,

I swear to you

I will always be there for you

There's nothing I won't do

I promise you all my life I will live for you

Forever we will be together

Just you and me

With all of my heart,

you know I'll always be right there

I believe in us,

nothing else could ever mean so much

Forever we will be

Let me do everything your heart desires

It feels so good when you get close

I still get weak

Cos in these arms is where you belong

Its you

It could only be you

Nobody else will ever do

Baby its you

that I stick to like glue

I'll give you love & hold you tight

A little tenderness, I'll treat you right

& I'll feel you in my heart, in my blood

& I'll hear your every thought, see your every dream

Give you wings when you want to fly

When it's love you make

I'll be the fire in your night

When it's love you take

I will defend, I will fight

I'll be there when you need me

When honor's at stake,

This vow I will make

I Love You

2007-05-14T23:59:00.000-07:00

can u smile with everyone on your back
without the sensitivity there is no fact

Firstly, Happy 8th, Baby (: I love you.
I can't put my fingers on
Just what it is that
Makes me love you, baby
So don't ask me to describe
I get all choked up inside

Daddy left s'pore last tuesday for holidays, & he's coming back tomorrow! :D
Changed almost all of the furnitures in my room and painted it (:
Sushi Tei last friday was super yummy. Secret recipe after that then to B's house (:

Had a great time at Sentosa's Palawan the next day with B, sis, Shirley & Maybelle.

& I got a new monkey for baby (: She has four monkeys now!

2007-05-04T18:23:00.000-07:00

& isn't this exactly where you'd like me

I'm exactly where you'd like me, you know

Praying for love in a lap dance and paying in naivety

I've been busy with school work & of course my baby (:

School has been great, I'm still loving it.

She's sucha sweet lil thing, & I love her very, very much :D

Aww, isn't she adorable? I swear she's the best girlfriend that any can ever get (:

Buddy is currently at my place & we were playing drums just now.

My dogs were making a lot of noise as usual.. But I love them very much still!

Going for dinner soon, then skate around.

Mommy's going to send me for hairdressing course like, again?

I graduated like 1 year ago but I forgot about everything so I guess I'm going for a better course this time O.o

Pictures :

2007-04-16T23:09:00.000-07:00

You can make all the moves, you can aim all the spotlights

Get all the sighs and the moans just right

So say, "What are you waiting for? Kiss her, kiss her."

I've been busy with school work. Nothing much happened.

Caught "The Reaping" & I think its quite dumb.

Met up with Bud & Jie (: It has been long, I've missed you two.

Work work, work.

Enough for today I guess. I'm lazy to blog further.

2007-03-27T00:31:00.000-07:00

It's like I've spent forever searching
Now I know that it was worth it
With you it feels like I am finally home

Dear, Han Bao Bao :)

Words can't expressed how much i love you.
Words can't tell you how much you mean to me.
Words can't show you how much I care about you.
Words can't explained the way i feel about you.

You love me
You kiss me
You hug me
You sing me to sleep
You sleep beside me
You feed me like a pig
You protect me from the thunder and the bad
You shelter me from the rain
You do your silly actions like the rolls and the pokes
You and your cute little tummy
You tell me those 3 words
You pout just to get your way through
You get angry at me for driving you mad
You shout at the other end of the line along with me ;

I love you much more than words can ever say.
Everything and anything that's about you, leaves me asking for more.
You are simply the cutest and the sweetest bao bao!
I could have all the money in the world, you'd still mean more to me.
Because your love makes me richer than the chings.
You are the happiness that i have found and never will i let it go.
You are the best part of my life :)
Without you, life just wouldn't make any sense.

Although it may sound cliche, but I still got to say.
I would like to spend forever with you ♥

I love you, BabyEn

With lots and lots of LOVE,

2007-03-21T23:52:00.000-07:00

Pictures!

Fremantle, Eshed

BBQ
Fremantle
Rolleystone

HarbourTown

2007-03-13T21:56:00.000-07:00

Love is a winding road

We’ll make it through together

& we'll never give up

Saturday, mommy's friend came to pick us up & we went to Fremantle market.

Mommy left me with Samantha & Brendan.

Wanted to watch a movie but didn't in the end.

Met mommy then had coffee & cakes.

Went to have seafood after that, then home.

They came over for dinner then yadah yadah.

Sunday, church in the morning then went to aunty Mary's place.

Went a lot of places after that.

The whole time I didn't want to leave the car.

Came home for dinner.

Monday, went Phoenix shopping centre for lunch then came home.

Today, went HarbourTown with mommy.

Had lunch, then shopping & more shopping.

This is lifeee, haha.

Gt a skateboard from there (:

Mommy spent so much at the GUESS shop :/

Ooh mommy bought a blazer from the skateshop for herself.

I didn't buy much today.

Mommy & all went crabbing, I went out to have seafood with cousie.

Drove around then came home.

Mommy and all just came back not long ago with only 3 crabs.

Claiming they saw a shark so they ran for their lives.

Thank god my mommy is still alive.

Bbq tomorrow 0_0

I miss Tiny B sooo much.

I think I bought her more things than I bought for myself.

Bb you better be happy!

I love Tiny B very much (:

I've made up my mind this time

Im gonna break through all these chains

I'm willing to risk it all, to take the fall

Cos nothing's gonna stop us now

I'll be there through good and bad

Through every step along the way

& no one can break the spell

2007-03-09T23:09:00.000-08:00

Each time I see her precious smile

It takes me to a place where love meets eternity

I'm not letting go

I don't want to be alone in this crazy world

I love her so

& I'll sacrifice it all to have her in my life

Garden City shopping centre in the noon to get some stuff + have lunch.

Pasta was yum yum (:

Went back home, helped cousie to pack her wedding gifts then went out again when she came back.

Went to HarbourTown. I love it there.

Shopping, & more shopping! :D Had Japananese food for dinner :D

Then came home while my mommy went to her friend's place.

Hi Bb (:

Tiny Bb's super sweet & cute :D

I love you Tiny B 0_0

Not a day goes by that I don't thank God for you

He blessed me with my angel though I don't deserve you

Before I met you girl, lonely was my best friend

Now that you are in my life, I am stronger within

I can't wait to kiss my angel late at night

& watch her go to sleep until I see her rise

2007-03-08T23:11:00.000-08:00

You & me,

Just you & me & no one else

Always & always, baby

Tuesday, went to Carousel shopping centre in the noon.

Bought two skinnies & 3 tops.

1 hour car ride to crabbing place in the evening.

Caught around 40+ crabs. Then went back home.

Crabs feast!

Wednesday, Phoenix shopping centre in the noon.

Crabbing in the night.

This time round, 55 crabs.

Today, slept for the whole day.

Went Mathaiyas' house for dinner.

BBQ for dinner, yum. Then came back home.

Talking to Bb now (: Dong xiii!

Bb I love you very much (:

& I miss you terribly ):

I want & need you badlyyy ):

I didn't bring my cable over so I can't upload pictures.

Next time then!

The first time I caught a glimpse of you

Then my thoughts were only of you

2007-03-04T23:33:00.000-08:00

This is love

From the first time I pressed my lips against yours

I'm drinking all of the tears you cry

Breathing every breath that you sigh

Sam's & this other place yesterday.

Church today then everyone came over for dinner, yumm.

I'm showing Bb my face now. Hahaha.

I wanna see Bbbbbb ):

Oh, webcammed with Nat & my sis today.

Saw Mel! Hahaha. & I finally saw my dogs :D So cutee.

Absolutely adorable. But Bb's much better :)

Nothing beats my Bb (:

I LOVE BB VERY MUCH :D

No words can ever describe my love for you

2007-03-01T22:18:00.000-08:00

I'm yours and you are mine.
Baby, there's something about you.
I want to hold you tonight.
Accidents happen strangest of places.
How come they happen at all?
Look for the turning for something or nothing.
I won't let you go because I need you so.
Every time I see you, you complete my life.
I found my answer, Baby, you are my answer.

Some people find it hard to see but every time you look at me,
There's just no doubt about it.
The way that I feel about you, girl.
I wouldn't trade it for all of the money in the world.
When I wake up in the morning and feel you next to me,
I know I'm blessed from above.
Cause its all so clear to see, that I've got a real love here with me.

Real love, I just can't stop it now.
Real love, I can't hold it down.
Real love, if I needed to, I'd give it all up for you.
Real love, you are all I want, I wouldn't ask for more.
Real love, you are the reason I'm living for.
This is real love, you and me.

No matter how much I might try,
No way of hiding what I feel inside.
Treasure more than diamonds and pearls,
My simple love for this one girl.
From her head to her feet, she's the best part of me.
She makes me smile the whole night through.

I miss you, My Everything and so much more.

With you as my Guardian Angel, why would I still need wishes for.
No one can ever replaced you and the place you have in my heart.
When you're close to me, it's the only time, I'm alive.

Say forever, you will stay by my side ♥

Babyy, I'm sorry :(

♥ Jo

2007-03-01T21:35:00.000-08:00

Cos all I've ever wanted

Is you

& you alone

& I love you so

More than you'll ever know

All I've ever wanted

Is you

Went to Marcus' place today then to Sam's place.

Had dinner & lunch at home.

Fremantle tomorrow :D Mommy says shopping for the whole of tomorrow (:

Sam's place on Saturday.

Thats aboout it I guess.

(I still don't know how to blow a bubble ):)

Called Bb today :DDD

Ohman, it has only been five days & I alr miss you so much ):

I bet Bb just wants me to bring goodies back for her!

Not me > : (

Ben dan B was being so mean on the phone ):

But I love you very much still :D

Everything I do is for you

& you are every part of me

& I don't want to face

Another day

Alone

Without your love

2007-02-28T21:46:00.000-08:00

Pretty girl you are the light of my life

I mean my everything

You are the one I'm gonna choose to be my wife

That's why I'm gonna make you wear my ring

Went Victoria Park today, then to Town.

Went back to Victoria Park for lunch at this restaurant.

Walked around & all, shopped for groceries then went back home.

Had shark's fins after dinner.

Then cousin brought me out for a ride.

Fishing & crabbing really soon I guess. Shopping tomorrow, (thats what my cousin says)

I wanna go Fremantle market! Uh shall blog tomorrow then.

& when I'm feeling down and out

You're the one who will bail me out

My love will always guide me home

Yay, called my sick baby today (:

& she's still sick ): Oh man, I miss her sooo much ):

It was sooo good to hear her voice :D

Yay I'm going to call her every day (:

& I love my Bb very much (:

Pretty girl don't ever say goodbye

Don't ever let me be

If you do, you know that I would die

You mean that much to me

My pretty girl, hear what I have to say

It's something you should know

You brought me sunshine on my darkest day

That's why I love you so

2007-02-27T21:24:00.000-08:00

I would give up my life

To spend just one night with you

Cos my love don't stop

I can't lie you bring out the best in me

Had breakfast & went to Garden city today.

Shopped around & they have this shop that's similar to Topman,

& they sell nicer clothes :D

Came home, had lunch. Did some baking then I went to sleep.

Woke up, helped to prepare dinner.

Had western food for dinner, yum :D

Omg I think I put on weight! Finallyyy :D

I MISS BB LIKE FUCK ):

My sick little babyy ):

Please please please take superrrrrr good care of yourself,

thought I know you're too dumb to! Alright, just kidding but please take super good care of yourself!

I'll buy you many many goodies :D

Listen now baby, I'll tell you true

Just how much that I love you

I got a sweet feeling

I know is real

This kind of love you can't conceal

For your love, for your love

I would give the stars above

For your love, for your love

I would give you all I could

2007-02-26T23:16:00.000-08:00

Hi dearest Baby ♥

Destiny cannot be shaken

Fate will send us where we need to be
Many turns our love has taken
But in the end you're standing here with me
Now it's a long road to forever

But together I know we'll find a way

Now we're standing on the edge
Edge of the eternity you and I
We're standing hand in hand
Nothing will break our love
I'll cherish you each day till I die
For all eternity you and I

My heart's filled with such emotion

You're the reason for the air I breathe
I pledge to you all my devotion

Until death do part you away from me
I've never been so close to heaven
As the moment when I looked into your eyes

And baby together
There is so much we have yet to see
And now & forever
I pray you'll always be here with me
Eternally

I can't imagine where I'll be without you with me
I need you every day more than words can say
I want you in my life
And for all lifetimes to come
This night will never end
You take my hand
And I fall in love again

I've been sure that a miracle
Could've brought you here to me
When I'm with you
Heaven's all I see

Caught up in every touch
I feel the rush of this moment back when we're here
Each time we kiss I can't resist
I fall in love again

You're there by my side
In every way
I know that you would not forsake me
I give you my life
Would not think twice
Your love is all I need

believe me

I may not say it quite as much as I should

When I say I love you darling that means for good
So open up your heart and let me in
And I will love you 'til forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we'll get there
This I swear

I'm wondering how I ever got by
Without you in my life to guide me
Where ever I go the one thing that's true
Is everything I do I do for you

So when ever you get there
Just reach out for me
I'll never let you down my love

And I will love you till forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we'll get there
This I swear

Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done

Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I cant fake it.
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.

Your touch, your skin
Cant believe the way you let me in
Don't rush tonight,
I need you like the ocean needs the tide.

And I vow to give you everything you need
I give you the sun and the moon and the stars
Whatever you want babe
You know I'll take good care of you
Whatever you need babyy
You can call on me
Your provider, your supplier,
Its my desire to take you higher

Baby, I love you ♥

2007-02-26T22:28:00.000-08:00

What would it take, for you to see

To make you understand that

I'll always believe

You and I, can make it through

Okay the time here is one hour faster than S'pore.

I reached here at 7:15am yesterday.

Went home then to church.

Had lunch after that then to my friend's place.

Home after that.

Called Bb :D Yay I finally heard her voice (:

Today, went Phoenix shopping centre to shop for groceries.

Came home, had curry for lunch.

I just ate crabs for dinner :D

Yummy.

There's too much food here omg.

I'm going to put on weight!

Oh man Bb you better not dump me by then ):

I miss you sooooooo much ):

I'm going to call her :D

Yay, crabbing and fishing sooooon

This is lifeee. Only if Bb's here ):

I know I´ll see you again

Whether far or soon

But I need you to know that I care

&, I miss You.

2007-02-24T21:00:00.000-08:00

Alrighties, gotta catch my 1am flight.
I'm finally going back to Aussie (:
Bye everyone, takecare.

& Bb, I'll miss you terribly ):
Please take good care of yourself!

2007-02-21T01:24:00.000-08:00

Every second, every moment

We've got to, we've gotta make it last

I touch you once, I touch you twice

I won't let go at any price

I need you now like I needed you then

Tell me now, you'll never leave

Pierced my lip again on Friday (: Thankyou Mel.

3 more to go.

CNY's really boring. Luckily there's B (:

I've been meeting B almost everyday, & thats really good :D

I've been eating a lot, but I don't seem to grow any fatter, tmd.

Caught midnight movie at Vivo with B on Monday.

Ghost Rider's quite a nice show.

Now B wants me to turn into a skeleton.

Presenting you B en Junior (:

Girl, I'm all about you

Cause if your love is all I had in this life

Well that would be enough until the end of time

So rest your weary heart and relax your mind

Cause I’m gonna love you girl until the end of time

2007-02-15T23:26:00.000-08:00

Every little thing that you have said and done

Feels like it's deep within me

Doesn't really matter if you're on the run

It seems like we'meant to be

14th Feb; Spent Valentines' day with Bb (:

It was the best Valentines' day I've ever had so far (:

& Jo Chloe Ong WY is officially my girlfriend, after four months (:

I wanna love you forever

& this is all I'm asking of you

Ten thousand lifetimes together

Is that so much for you to do?

Cos from the moment that I saw your face & felt the fire in your sweet embrace

I swear I knew I'm gonna to love you forever.

I can't stop thinking of you

I don't care what's written in your history

As long as you're here with me

2007-02-14T00:00:00.000-08:00

Sometimes it's hard to make things clear

Or know when to face the truth

& I know that the moment is here

I'll open my heart and show you inside

My love has no pride

Happy Valentine's, B (:

I love you,

& I promise to love you more each day (:

You're all I've ever wanted, ever needed

Hold on tight, don't ever let me go

Baby I've finally found

The Courage to stand my ground

But if you want me

I'll be around, forever

2007-02-11T22:28:00.000-08:00

Oh love, hang on,

I've gotta say this right

Cos I only get one shot,

Once in my life

Cos I want to grow old with you

& I want you to hold me forever

Went town yesterday to meet B.

Met Nat & all.

& JJ was being so irritating, haha.

After that cabbed to Rayner's place to get something then to B's house.

Stayed over (:

Today, went church in the morning with B & family.

Then had breakfast at Ghim Moh market.

After that they went shopping then I went home.

I miss Bb so much ):

Get well soon B, I love you (:

When we come together, you cant stop this good thing

No you can't put it out

When we come together, try to stop this good thing

& it will burn you down

Cos without you, I'm nothing

I just wanna hold you forever

2007-02-08T23:19:00.000-08:00

You're so fine I want you mine; you're so delicious

I think about you all the time; you're so addictive

Don't you know what I can do to make you feel alright

& its your love that my heart beats for.

Bb, I love you (:

2007-02-08T03:37:00.000-08:00

Close to you, so far away

A rented room, anempty space

Sirens bleeding through the open door

Movie scene in black and white

The snow falls down alone tonight

No one's ever felt like this before

Happy Birthday, Calli (:

One night stand @ Marina Mandarin Hotel with Jie & Bud, ha.

19th January, DXO (:

Every letter that you wrote stays with me,

& every promise that I broke, stays with me

& everything that's left inside, stays with me

It stays with me

My apologies.

Is it too late?

2007-02-04T19:26:00.000-08:00

Hand in mine, into your icy blues

& then I'd say to you we could take to the highway

With this trunk of ammunition too

I'd end my days with you in a hail of bullets

I remember when you came with me that night

We said forever, that you would never let me go

But here I am again

With nothing left inside

No I don't wanna but I gotta let you go

You're the one mistake

I really didn't mind

So beautiful, unmercifully

It took me down

Too little and too late

2007-01-31T11:13:00.000-08:00

Those who left, or those who stayed?

" Everyday I get closer and closer to releasing this on you

Roll it in, I can snap it in half and let the others make this happen to you

All I see is someone afraid of my eyes

It's inside me

You're all abortions to me

Fucking lying to me as if I don't need an apology

I don't give a fuck who you think you are

Go away

Anyway, you make me sick and it doesn't help your case

It's so serious I can't stop laughing

& I cannot wash my mouth off this taste

You try to destroy

Afraid to face the facts

I don't know how much longer you can live a lie

I want the whole world to burn every single thing

For once it's not on my head "

2007-01-29T04:13:00.000-08:00

It's the only one thing that I'm sure

Only one thing that is so pure

Pure enough my heart can cure

There's so much I can endure

Searching places you might be

Anywhere I'll go if I can meet

You and tell you how I need you here with me

I can't live without your love

Why can't I just give up and let go

When it's over and I know

Everywhere I looked for high and low

Couldn't find you and it shows

That you don't want me to come to you

Come to you again

So I tried

Try to live my life without you here

But what I run into is more fear

Can you hear my words it's so sincere

That I really need you near

Why can't you see this is real

It's too late to say

These words of redemption

I should've known better

If I can turn back the clock

I'll do anything and everything

2007-01-29T01:23:00.000-08:00

Yeah I've reached the lowest point in life that no one has ever reached.

Curse Wayne, hope she dies.

2007-01-23T05:05:00.000-08:00

I hear, a voice say

Don't be so blind

It's telling me all these things, that you would probably hide

Am I, your one and only desire

Am I the reason you breathe, or am I the reason you cry

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIS <333

Went town before going Soft@DXO on saturday.

Met Nicky, Nat, Keith, Calli, Andrea, & friends.

Ddr-ed with Nat as usual.

Took prints with Nicky&Nat (:

Cabbed to Esplanade in the night.

Met up with Fel & friends.

Got in & yeah it was as bad as Sense@DXO.

It was over crowded.

Drank at Harry's before that.

Tequilla + Barcadi 151 (:

Went into DXO, danced a little.

Left cos it was too crowded.

Fel treated me to beer at Harry's (: Thanks girl.

Left at five something am.

Went Vivo to meet baby yesterday & she was late for 7 minutes!

Hahaha I was being damn irritating over the 7 minutes.

Ate & all then b sent me home (:

Today, bb came over.

Time passed so fast & I'm missing her alr ):
I love you B (:

You are mine there's no other one for me

Keep in mind

You make my life complete

& tonight we'll make love endlessly

Cos you're mine

You're the one that

I'll keep for all time

2007-01-18T04:16:00.000-08:00

& in my honest observation

During this operation

Found a complication in your heart

So long, cos now you've got

Maybe just two weeks to live

Is that the most the both of you can give?

Just maybe a little more than two weeks.

Skated on Wednesday with AnZai & co.

Bronson & JJ came down to look for me.

Then stayed out.

Went town the next day with Calli, Andrea, Trico & Nicky.

Met Stacy & Jaey.

Calli & Andrea got me a hat (:

& then Calli got me my favourite hello panda.

Thankyou!

Slacked at Starbucks after that.

Went home at 12am.

Soon I'll be without phone again I guess.

Great, I need to work. Fucked up, seriously.

DXO this Saturday, I hope everything turns out fine.

& then I met this girl...

Shots, pills, or cuts?

Oh maybe sex's better.

If life ain't just a joke

Then why am I laughing?

2007-01-16T01:30:00.000-08:00

Pictures! Saturday

No more

Wayne, Keith

Wayne, Nicky, Priscilla

Wayne, Nicky

Priscilla, Wayne

No more

Calli, Wayne

Wayne, Jo, Calli, Meifen, Priscilla
Meifen, Calli, Wayne

Wayne, Meifen, Stacy

Check out the monkey in my room, haha.

2007-01-15T21:26:00.000-08:00

Well it rains and it pours

When you're out on your own

If I crash on the couch

Can I sleep in my clothes?

Cos I've spent the night dancing

I'm drunk, I suppose

If it looks like I'm laughing

I'm really just asking to leave

Saturday, got my haircut at my teacher's salon.

Went town after that & met many people.

Went DXO in the night with Josephine, Meifen, Celine, Priscilla, Calli, Stacy & friends.

It sucked. They were playing techno in the beginning.

It was f crowded so I left.

Stayed at home on Sunday.

Went to court in the morning.

My parents tagged along -_-

Finally went in.

& I'm finally released,

I don't have to go anymore :D

Dexter & my parents left then Dorris & Pearl came.

After that we all went home.

& I better be going school tomorrow.

I need to skate.

I don't know if I'm going DXO this coming Saturday.

I'd rather skate tho.& my dance partner's not going ):

Blogger's being irritating, I can't upload pictures.

Shall upload another time!

& I think I'm better off on my own

2007-01-12T03:51:00.000-08:00

I'm scratching out my whole life

Never to break through the skin

My body's always folding,

I'm lost in a complex machine

Wondering if the world stops only to tuck me in

When it all stops, you see right through these colors

Went skating with Bronson & guys on Tuesday.

Got a bag & gloves for skating from Spitfire (:

Wednesday, celebrated Nicky's birthday in town (:

Thursday, met B at Vivo & caught Spirits Of The Victims.

Smuggled sushis & doritos in :D

I couldn't understand the show at all & I swear I wanted to run out of the theatre ):

Bb protects me! :DDD

I need to be a little more man luhhh ):

Friday, went to meet mom at Vivo.

Got a new phone (:

Got a new topman top (:

Got a new pair of shoes (:

Then went for dinner.

Mom talked to me & she's still as nice as ever (:

Love you mommyyy.

I need to skate more ):

But it has been raining like shit, tmd.

Clubbing on saturday at DXO if B's not staying out.
Omg, I miss B so much ):

I haven't seen her for 2 days!

We're supposed to see each other everyday ):

I'm dying, B ):

I love my B freaking much (:

& she said she's gentle.

Hahaha, so cuteee :D

Yay I'm high-maintenance.

Too bad, too late for regrets :D

My Wei Yu (:

& this is for B :

You fill me up

You're in my veins

A look could take my breath away

& all these things you give away

Sometimes I take for granted

It's just like poetry inside

To hear you breathing by my side

Like I’m in Heaven and I’ve died

So glad you're with me for this ride

I see your face to start my day

Makes my all bad dreams go away

& all the stupid games we play

Wouldn't have it any other way

Whenever I'm alone with you,

You make me feel like I am home again

Whenever I'm alone with you,

You make me feel like I am whole again

However far away, I will always love you

However long I stay, I will always love you

Whatever words I say, I will always love you

Be the one I need

Be the one I trust most

Don't stop inspiring me

Sometimes it's hard to keep on running

We work so much to keep it going

Don't make me want to give up

So please say you'll stay, don't ever go away.

2007-01-12T02:59:00.000-08:00

Its going 2 years.

I'm still the one that you used to know.

I don't think I'll ever cry this much for a friend.

But you're different.

Everything that you do affects me but,

do you know how much I trust you.

You were there to hear me out.

You're always there.

I really, treasure you & love you a lot as a friend so,

please don't ever leave cos I need you so.

If I could get back what we had last time, I would.

Those times when you made me laugh when I cried.

Now you've got new companies.

Somehow, I'm sad but still, I'm happy for you.

I'm always here, & always will be <3>

Febuary 7th

2007-01-08T22:00:00.000-08:00

X'mas Eve

Saturday

2007-01-04T22:32:00.000-08:00

Why do you have to be so cute?

It's impossible to ignore you

Must you make me laugh so much

It's bad enough we get along so well

Yesterday

First day of school was boring.

3 hours talk in hall, tmd.

Irritating classmates & dumb teacher.

Cabbed back home after school, baby waited for me at my house.

Then cabbed to town.

Watched Night at the museum, I fell asleep cos I was too tired.

& baby did something to my hair >:(

Took neos!

Sent baby home then I went home.

Today

Didn't go school.

Slept for the whole day then went to see doctor.

Tmd they took blood out of me, so painful.

Baby's sick too ):

& heyyo I'm dying.

Well I guess I'm ready

For settling down

& fooling around is over

& I swear it's true

No buts or maybes

When I'm falling down

There's always someone who saves me

& girl it's you

Well it's feeling right now

So let's do it right now

Praying that some how

You will understand the way

It's feeling right now baby somehow

I won't let this slip away

2007-01-03T00:41:00.000-08:00

I wanna feel the way you make me feel

When I'm with you

I wanna be the only hand

You need to hold on to

It has been so long since I last blogged.

Its 2007!

Goodbye to 2006, it has been a bad one.

Shopping & skating for the last two weeks.

Spent X'mas eve, New year's eve at Coco Latte.

Got drunk on X'mas eve, dead drunk on New year's eve,

but it was fun dancing on podiums & fagging like chimney.

Drank 4 shots + 2 burbon + beer on X'mas eve & 2 shots + 2 jugs + 1 housepour on New year's eve.

Met Maryanne & co before X'mas eve @ Coco.

Took prints (: Shall upload it next time since it doesn't allow me to upload now > :(

X'mas eve @ Coco,

Keith unbuttoned my freaking top & all the girls saw.

After that me & Nicklaus frenched 4 times.

It was a crazy night -_-

Supper at Spize then went to Jobelle's place after that.

New year's eve, met Calli & went to get my vest & shirt.

Met Keith at Anchorage after that.

Slacked around then went to pick Stacy up to Clarke Quay.

Brewerks was packed so we packed the drinks.

Countdown was quite okay.

Bought sprays then me & Keith started running around spraying at people cos we were too bored.

Went Coco after that & we missed the free flow ):

Met Baby, Jobelle, Trico, Ally, & others.

Went in, drank & danced. Had fun.

I fell off the podium, & was falling everywhere, & I was actually lying on the dancefloor.

The guys had to carry me out & I fell off the stairs.

Baby was having a hard time taking care of me.

Sorry baby <3

Went Ally's place after that.

Slept, woke up & left for Keith's place.

Baby left for town.

Slept at Keith's place, got up,

bathed & changed, went town to meet Baby.

Took prints, had sushi, met Nicklaus.

Went off to meet Buddy & 'Jie' with Baby after that.

Went somewhere & supper was great (:

Everything was great :D

Only baby knows 8)

Woke up at eight something cos baby had to leave.

& I miss baby/samba/b/biba/ben dan so muchhh ):

Lately I'm so tired

If I took it all out on you

I never meant to

If I left you outside

If you ever felt I ignored you

No, my life is all you

Tonight I gonna make it up to you

Tonight I'm gonna make love to you

Tonight you're gonna know how much I missed you, baby

Tonight I dedicate my heart to you

Tonight I gonna be a part of you

Tonight you're gonna know how much I miss you

& I miss you so

I don't wanna act like

I know that you'd be mine forever

Though I hope it's forever

Don't want you to feel like

I take you for granted

Whenever we are together

I love you.

2006-12-20T23:40:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, Nicklaus, Jaey, & Stacy came over.

I got ready & we left for town.

Met Kelly & me, Stacy & Kelly were wearing the same thing -_-

Had dinner, then off to Clark Quay.

Met Nat & others.

Popped a few shots,

Liquid Cocaine, B52, Tequilla, & Quickfuck.

Got a little high, just a little.

I think thats only for the drinks.

A group of weird people came.

Then off to Attica!

I got in then yeah came out, tried to help others in.

We all danced on the podium.

Drank a little inside.

& I stripped!

Hahaha, was grinding Nicklaus all the while.

How gayy.

Got off after some time & dance outside the toilet.

It was really spacious there luh.

Music didn't suck that much though.

& the dancefloor was too packed :/

Got out at two something am.

Sat outside & all, got drenched.

Went to buy drinks for the drunkards.

Then I left at three something am when they were okay.

Today, baby called & I woke up, then back to sleep.

Woke up at five pm.

Then went out with dad to meet mom.

Bought two shirts.

Wanted to buy this super nice jeans from G-star,

but didn't get in the end ):

Had dinner at Din Tai Feng.

Reached home at eleven pm.

2006-12-19T03:03:00.000-08:00

Yo, guess who?! Hahaha.

Prints taken on Saturday.

Saturday

Thursday, Evan's Hostel

Never in my life I expected this to come from you. I have never done a single thing to you. & I'm sure you know how I used to treat you. How can you be so fucking ungrateful to me? I thought we were good friends, really good friends. I trusted you & this is what you're giving me. You're so despicable & I finally know how disgusting a person can get. I fucking loved you as a friend. Shared what I had with you. Those tears & joy we had but I guess I didn't mean anything to you if not you wouldn't have done such a thing to me. Thank you, really.

I think this is funny >

Wayne > & the whole world comes crashing down on you. says:
STACY4EVA YO!
Goodnight & Go; says:
WAYNE4ETERNITY
Goodnight & Go; says:
HAHAHA!
Goodnight & Go; says:
coolios right
Wayne > & the whole world comes crashing down on you. says:
LOL
Goodnight & Go; says:
HAHAHA
Wayne > & the whole world comes crashing down on you. says:
FRIENDS4LIFE!
Goodnight & Go; says:
yeah man!
Goodnight & Go; says:
enemies4death
Goodnight & Go; says:
yuck

Court tomorrow, then Stacy, Nick, & Jaey's coming over to spoil my drums, HAHA. Stacy's gonna help me pick what to wear & then off to Attica! :D

2006-12-17T20:32:00.000-08:00

Harsh words can push you aside

But you won't make me cry

Truth hurts baby that's no lie

I just came home from town.

Zhi picked me up & we went to town (:

Me & Zhi got the same earring cause we only needed one each (:

Slacked around & stuff.

Ddr-ed with Nat!

Watched Midnight Sun with Stacy, Nat, Nick, Kelly, & Jaey.

It was really boring & when I wanted to cry, the show ended.

Sang birthday song for Jaey outside PS, & in the bus to Cityhall (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAEY :D

Met up with JianQing & co.

Some of them went off, Jaey left after awhile.

Stacy stayed with me :D

Went town's Skatepark after that.

I didn't bring my skates out though ):

Didn't see Zai & co ):

Had supper at Hongkong Cafe.

Stacy was being so !#$%^&*& !

Stacy left at five am so I went skateboarding.

Crapped with JianQing & co.

(Yay I'm pretty)

I think I'm gonna take up Thai Boxing!

Fagged like a chimney & yeah came home at six something.

Attica this Tuesday!

But I've got to go Court before that, grr.

I remember grinding my sis in a club last time, HAHA!

All this time, you've been telling me lies

Hidden in bags that are under your eyes

& when I asked you, I knew I was right

But if you turn your back on me, now

When I need you most

But you chose to let me down

Won't you think about what you're about to do to me and back down?

When you knew my heart would break

2006-12-15T07:30:00.000-08:00

& my heart's sinking like a weight

How would you feel if everyone has been lying to you?

Cause sometimes not knowing's better than knowing.

Never in my life I'd want to know all these.

This is too much.

I shouldn't have cared so much.

I opened up & let you in, but all I got was, lies.

For you, I tried.

How am I supposed to feel about the things I've done

I don't know if I should stay or turn around & run

2006-12-14T22:01:00.000-08:00

You're so predictable no shadow of doubt

When you're suffering know who sold you out

Fuck your opinions

Fuck your lack of spine

When you're miserable

Know that I'm just fine

Tuesday, went town to meet Jo & Evan.

Met bro after such a long time :D

Evan was drunk @ four something in the afternoon?

Had a hard time taking care of her.

Pool-ed a little then went to have dinner.

Went Brewerks with Jo, Evan, Singh & Fish.

Wanted to order a tower butt settled down with two jugs in the end.

Drank & I guess I was a little gone, but wasn't drunk.

Evan, Singh, & Fish left for Zouk.

Went to have supper with Jo. Ordered quite a lot I guess.

Stingray was great :D

Bought some stuffs then cabbed to Evan's hostel.

Watched Bring it on (:

Evan came back, me & Jo went to the rooftop.

Sat around, then went back.

Slept at ten am.

Woke up, ate, slacked around & slept at four something am.

Jo went off at about one pm.

Woke up & went JP with Evan.

Bought groceries & I cut my hair :/

+ two packs.

Guess I'm staying for another night since I'm so lazy to go home.

Shall upload pics another time!

Baby, I miss you ):

2006-12-10T23:01:00.000-08:00

This constant pressure that keeps hanging over me

It makes me feel so empty

It's more than anything that I could ever be

What else could you take from me

It's getting harder to relate

Don't want to make the same mistakes

Yesterday, went town to meet Jo & Evan was there with her.

Met Isabelle & friends, went Heeren then to PS.

Drummed a little & I swear my left hand's paralysed ):

Isabelle & co went to CCK.

Evan, Jo, & me went Cineleisure for dinner.

Slacked at Rockys, & Jo kept stealing my drink!

Went Clarke Quay after that.

Drank at Brewerkz.

It was really yummy.

Ordered a jug + draft selections.

I swear Jo's a lousy drinker! She got drunk before me?! K I didn't get drunk. & its the first time in my life that someone got drunk before me. Walked to town after that. Evan disappeared halfway. Then I sent Jo home. Walked around CCK for quite some time then went home.

(Jo violated me when she was drunk + whacked me)

Last Saturday!

There's no solution

Give me truth to my conviction

Is it my own confusion

Reality or fiction

Am I out of my mind

2006-12-08T22:03:00.000-08:00

I didn't have the strength to fight

suddenly you seemed so right

Me and you

What a feeling

Yesterday, went Bugis to collect my specs. Then cabbed to Jo's place. Watched some show & ate a lot of junk food again! & I drank quite a lot of Vitagen. Watched television & Jo sewed something for me :D Okay, for us. I didn't get to sleep ): I was so tired! Kor finally got his driving license. So my whole family went out in the middle of the night (with my dogs too) & wanted to pick me up & drive around? They're nuts I swear. I told them my friend was driving me around, so they didn't pick me up! Hahaa. Stayed up until around four am, then went to sleep. Woke up late, so was late for Court. Jo cooked noodles for me :D Okay, cup noodles! Haha. Ate, then left at ten thirty am.

I was supposed to be there by nine thirty am. Couldn't get a cab at all. Waited for quite some time. Then took a bus instead. Reached the Court at around twelve pm. Sat around then yeah had break until two thirty pm so I cabbed home. Then cabbed back. After fifteen minutes they released us. Then I went home. Kor's gf. I was so bored so I followed kor to pick my mom up, send his gf home, then came home. Mom was nagging at me in the car cause I went to make a pair of specs myself two years ago, paid, but didn't retrieve it. So they called my dad yesterday & he went down to collect so now I've got two pairs of specs. I can finally see!

Love will remain a mystery

But give me your hand and you will see

Your heart is keeping time with me

2006-12-06T04:56:00.000-08:00

Oh but I'm craving and counting

I'm begging and pleading

Be mine tonight

Well I'm waiting and dying

I'm wanting and waiting

To show you how much I care

Just hung up with Jo not long ago :/

Yesterday, sis accompanied me to Court. Had breakfast somewhere nearby. Met Dorris, Dexter, & Pearl. As usual we waited for so long. Luckily Dexter brought his laptop + vcds so it wasn't that bad. Break at twelve forty five pm I think. Walked around & all. Jo came down to look for me :D Ate at Delifrance. Went back to Court at two forty five pm. Waited until four pm & it wasn't our turn yet so we went home. Me, sis, & Jo cabbed back to my place. Watched this movie until me & Jo fell asleep. Woke up, watched television then Jo went back at eight pm. K so she reached home, & her mom cancelled her tuition so yeah she's going Malaysia later on ): & I still have to go Court. Thinking of going either Genting or Cameron next week with Dorris & friends then maybe Jo? :D I stayed in Singapore for the whole of this year & I didn't even go back Aussie ): Bro's still in America. Buddy's missing -_- I miss the both of them luhh ):

I just took out all my stitches myself cause I missed the appointment the other time :/ K its actually quite fun to pull out threads from your skin/nails. & yesterday I only slept for two hours. I have two hours to sleep now then I'll have to get ready for Court. So nights!

Where I'll be touching and holding

Caressing and giving you

Every fantasy

I'll get you dreaming and lusting

And burning and crying

For more of this ecstacy

2006-12-04T01:57:00.000-08:00

I will not stop searching till I am where I want to be
Cause all I have is nothing without you right here with me
I won't stop chasing after you
It doesn't matter how far
Cause everything that I need is everything you are

& I would wait right here forever
Just to be where you are
& I would trade it all in a second
Just to be where you are

Don't have all the answers
But one thing I know is that
Where you are going is where I want to go
Don't have all the words to tell
I know cause I've already tried
aAll I know is that when you are here
You make me feel alive

Just to feel
To feel you here with me
Just to hear you whisper
the words that are priceless to me
Tust to know you more
To be with you
To lose myself in you
Is all I want
All I want
Just to be where you are

& there is nothing that I wouldn't do
Just to be where you are
& there is nothing that I wouldn't go through
Just to be where you are

& thats how I feel

& I just want to let you know that I really do love you.

2006-12-03T22:30:00.000-08:00

Cause maybe

Someday I could learn to trust you

& just stop thinking with my head

Cause maybe

Someday I could learn to let go

I lose control but that's okay with me

I lose control but tell me what's wrong with that

Yesterday, rushed down to Zhi's place cause I wanted to meet bro for a ltitle while but I was too late. So met Michelle & we cabbed to town. Went Spinelli to meet Evan, Lyanne, & Jo. Nat came, then Isabelle & friends. Went Cineleisure, ddr-ed as usual with Nat. Evan, Lyanne, & Jo went Kpool. The rest of us went Rocky's. Slacked around then I went to Kpool to look for them. Talked to Evan & yeah. Had relapse & I so wanted to die. It wasn't as bad as last time though. But I didn't have my medicine so hahaha. K then it went away after quite some time. Zhaopian came to look for me (: Talked. Then Evan, Lyanne, & Jo left. Went Takashimaya with Zhaopian + two friends. Walked around & yeah talkeddd. Then cabbed back home.

Why do I have to know everything

& why does everything always have to make sense

Why do I always have to have you figured out

Cause I just want to take your hand

Reached home at around eleven something pm, changed & went out. Sis asked me out for to drink so I brought my skates & cabbed to Esplanade. & I totally forgot that I was going to Esplanade & there was a party. & I dressed like crap. & MY SIS JUST HAD TO MEET ME RIGHT OUTSIDE DXO. What a fucker. & I couldn't see without my specs so greatt I was waiting for her to spot me. Before I met my sis & friend I heard Nat's screaming. But I couldn't see so yeah. Then I called her. Met her & I had to take care of three drunkards. & of course I got whacked & shit like this. My sis & friend went to buy drinks. Yeah asked me out to drink but forgot to buy for me. Greatt. Finally sent Nat off & yeah she taught me how to draw moon+stars. & I wanted to go in to DXO cause the music was fucking goodd. So cabbed to Skatepark with sis & friend. Skated around then JianQing & friends came. One Slalom skater, more than six skate boarders? Skate boarded a little. Sis & friend went to get some stuffs & sis' friends came. Then four more people came. Skated until six something am then went off cause it was drizzling. & I wanted to go breakdancing so much but they were all tired ):

Omg I have to go somewhere near court tomorrow for some interview shit thing for the court case. Then Tuesday, Wednesay, Thursday & Friday I have to go court. K shall upload the pictures next time, bye!

& you say if I fall I will

Fall straight into your arms

Should I trip over my feet

& if I start to slip I will

Slip right onto my knees

Into the center of your hands

2006-11-30T23:12:00.000-08:00

So won't you show me your devotion,

Heal my aching heart,

Its like a neutron bomb explosion,

Tearing me apart

Yesterday, woke up one something. I was supposed to be at Jo's place by one? Hahaha. Left Von's house, took a cab to her place. She told me to turn left but it was right -_- I went through her photo albums hahaha. & my baby photos are on her wall :D Watched shows & ate a lot of junk food + green tea. Most of the time I was trying to sleep but she just didn't let me. Then I forgot what we did & fell asleep at five am? Woke up at twelve pm. Obviously I didn't have enough sleep. BUT she didn't let me sleep again. K so she went to buy more junk food + green tea. & Jo wastes fooooood! She wastes a lot of food. Hahaha k then she had to go town with her family. So yeah dropped me at Cineleisure & I cabbed home.

So there you go

I'll be the one,

to help you weather the storm

I'll be there

No matter where & when,

You can always count on me

I'ma take it from here

& JO COOKED FOR ME. Okay not really. She toasted bread for me. So she gave her first to me! Hahahaha.

2006-11-29T04:40:00.000-08:00

She's got a pretty face

Such a lovely name

I don't want my friends to see

They might take her

Away from me

She's one I won't forget

For a long, long, long time

And now i really want

The world to see

That she is the one for me

I'm at Von's house nowww :D Went town to meet Jo just now :D Walked around and all. Had dinner at far east. I hate staircases. Why can't they have escalators everywhere?! I was so frustrated cause my vision was so blur! Okay it is still blur though. Fine, I feel frustrated everyday cause I can't see anything. I don't know how I even lost my specs. I need to get new specs soon! Okay & I think I just a little dumber & a little slower cause I keep injuring my head. Oh man, I kill a lot of brain cells ): K so we met Von & Xav at Paragon. Paragon's too high class for Von! Haha, & then we went to Toys'R'us. I'm still deprived of childhood. Children nowadays get such good toys! Haha, then yeah we walked to Cineleisure. Von finally got me the mickey studs! :D & for the whole day I kept asking Jo to carry my bag. & I brought the little monkey out! Okat Jo I know I need to be a little more man! I shall be a little more. Just a little! Hahaha. Went to the foodcourt cause Von wanted to eat but didn't eat in the end. Xav and Jo went off together cause they live near each other. Then my and Von took a long bus ride back to her place. I went to buy ciggs and they checked meee Hello Panda. Haha but my ID's ninteen so Von don't you laugh at me. I still think Hello Panda's really nice. But Jo likes the vanilla one :/

There's no denying when I look in your eyes,

girl I'm out of my head over you

I just hung up with Jo not long ago & she somehow fell asleep on me cause I refused to sing her to sleep. Next time luhh okay. You stupid dan! & EVAN'S STILL SLEEPING AT HOME?! Its 4:33am & she should be here like way earlier?! Now she switched off her phone. DEE didn't come you ass. You still owe me my balls! & GREAT, I didn't bring my phone charger. Von's sleeping. Omg today's supposed to be a fun day luhh ): We were supposed to have "Vulgarity Mahjong Session", "Drinking Session (Baileys+Anlene Milk) Cause she has no fresh milk! But it still tastes as nice. Boo ): I'm so bored and no one's entertaining me. Everyone's sleeping & for a little moment I was being emo. Hahaha. I shall drink alone then. & I'm feeling hungry again though I just cooked & ate not long ago.

I never thought I'd lay my heart on the line

But everything about you is tellin' me this time

This time I know and there's no doubt in my mind

&& I miss stupid dan ): Yay I'm going over to your place later & we shall watch Casino Royale :D & drink Vitagen (since you like it so much) & dan, you better be honoured okay. You're the only one I talk to the phone to yet you're so mean to me ):

2006-11-27T00:30:00.000-08:00

Treat me right only when there's you and me and no one else

Hard to phantom.

& I just want to get back to Australia and forget about all these.

Cause its hurting too much.

I tried so hard.

Maybe I didn't try hard enough.

You just can't see.

I hope so much that one day there'd only be you and me

So you'll always treat me right.

They all say I'm heading for suicide.

I don't think I'm feeling alright tonight.

& I just want to pop those shots & pop those pills,

&, knockout.

2006-11-26T23:15:00.000-08:00

And it is breaking me down

Watching the world spin 'round

While my dreams fall down

Is anybody out there?

It is breaking me down

Saturday, went town to meet Bro (: Talked things out and yeah, Bros always (: Met Von for awhile, then sent her up to her workplace (: Oh yeah and I saw Nat (: Then went to meet Jo & Evan. Went to the arcade, ddr-ed with Bro like how we used to (: Went Rocky's. Met Nicklaus and friends. Had fun. A lot of nonsense though. Met buddy for awhile (: Thanks for coming down! Then Jo disappeared. So me and Evan skated to PS hoping to find her on the way but we failed. So we skated back to Cineleisure. & I fell once. Evan almost fell though. Haha. I perspired like shit and yeah then went to look for Von. Left our skates with her then we went for dinner. It was my breakfast+lunch+dinner though. Sorted things out at LJS. I was trying to be cool and Evan had to play along. Hahaha. & I just want to be what I was trying to be (Evan, keep quiet about it okay) Then yeah went to look for Von. Watched her eat and yeah after a while she went back to work. Pool-ed with Evan. I lost touch already hahaha. Jo came, finally (with a monkey) Quite cute luh.

You didn't say you're sorry

I don't understand

You don't care that you hurt me

Then we went Skate park to meet An zai & co. Couldn't skate there because it is booked. So yeah drove to Raffles there. Quite cool to skate there luhh but nothing much there. So drove to Bedok. Skated there. Its a big Skate park. I actually skated up the bowl which looks like a plate. & I got in! Haha the bowl plate's quite fun to skate. Skated to Macs with Evan to get Happy Meal -_- Okay got the toy for Jo. & Jo's a happy girl now. Haha. While skating back I actually went straight into a chain. I didn't see until I crashed into it. & oh before that I fell at the skatepark and knocked my head. So I fell again and knocked my head really hard and yeah thats double hit + I injured my stomach. I think I injured my neck too cause its hurting now and my head hurts. I'm in need of a pair of new specs. Went back, skated a little more then went Evan's place with Jo. All the while I was trying to sleep but I had to entertain Jo cause she couldn't sleep. Haha in the end I fell asleep and I think she went to look for Evan -_- Then she woke me up. Left Evan's house, sent Jo to town then I went home. Bathed, went to sleep.

Girl, you lied straight to my face

Looking in my eyes

And I believed you 'cause I loved you more than life

2006-11-25T02:25:00.000-08:00

Running all the time

Running to the future

With you right by my side

And I'm so sorry that I've fallen

Help me up lets keep on running

Don't let me fall out of love

Its 2:25am now. Heading to town later to meet Jo (: Then yeah skating in the night with Anzai & co. I wanna go for a car ride though. Speeding up Mt Faber will do. I hope I won't crush any of my fingers anymore. It was really a bad experience. I shan't touch those heavy platforms. I shall let guys do the job next time, haha. Went shopping on Friday. Only bought a few things. K I don't have the mood to blog anymore so yeah, bye.

Be the one I need

Be the one I trust most

Don't stop inspiring me

Sometimes it's hard to keep on running

We work so much to keep it going

Don't make me want to give up

Found out some stuffs, & somehow I feel disgusted

Used to talk about,

Used to feel digusted.

Loser to successful at appearance,

but always a loser at heart.

Games you love to play,

no one will ever entertain.

How about that?

"Steals all your fame and puts your name to shame"

Sometimes not knowing is better than knowing.

From the start I shouldn't have known so many things.

New lover, happy ending,

Old lover, there crying.

Everything's not what it seems to be.

Then to breakdown and cry.

So forget about everything and start all over.

Always & forever, not.

2006-11-22T04:04:00.000-08:00

I miss those days. All the fun and laughter.

(Super long ago)

& I just digged a super, super old photo out.

It doesn't look like me at allll.

That's all I think.

2006-11-21T23:45:00.001-08:00

Everyday love me your own special way

Melt all my heart away with a smile

Take time to tell me you really care

And we'll share tomorrow together

& baby, I'll always love you

Stupid dan came over today :D Watched Eye ten, and some other television programmes. Then slept a little. Went to my house area and yeah sat around. Then went to eat. After eating, Evan came (: Took her things, then yeah sent them off. Stupid dan bought me a lot of sweets today but I'm already finishing it ):

I miss buddy, laode, Zhaopian! & of course you ):

Laode! 28th okay? :D We'll have all the fun in the world! Must get DEE too :D Okay I'm so so so looking forward to it. & don't you ever forget my mickey stud!

28th, 28th, 28th! :DDD

Somehow I still can't believe. So disappointing.

2006-11-20T19:43:00.000-08:00

They say candy is sweet

But it just can't compete with

You baby

You've got everything I need

And nobody can please like

You do, baby

Things are so fucked up now, but with you around I have no fear.

You just make things better.

&, I don't think I made the wrong choice. If I could choose again, it'd still be her.

What's left to explain?

Its quite upsetting that I don't know you at all after all those shit.

And yay gather together and talk bout her!

& realise how she's like and hate her even more!

Maybe it'd fun for you guys.

2006-11-19T22:40:00.000-08:00

I've always needed something

But I've got all I want when it comes to lovin' you

You're my only reason, you're my only truth

Saturday

Met Jo in town (: Then walked around and all. Wanted to catch a movie but yeah some stuff happened. After that, went to PS with Jo and Cookie. Bought tickets for The Convenant. Then Cookie went off to meet her friends. Watched with Jo. The show's quite cool though. Went Orchard Emerald to for dinner after that. Then to Cineleisure. Met Cookie, then yeah sat around. Saw Keith and co. So went Cuppage cause they wanted to play pool. Me and Jo watched cause I didn't want to play. Talked to Keith and Cookie (: Finished at one something am? Then went off to Cineleisure's Cheers cause they wanted to get some thing to eat. After that, went to Skate park. Skated a little, then stopped cause there were a few people biking. Cookie, Keith, and friend went off. Roamed around in town with Jo. Then went to macs, at PS. Played with the bubble bubble thing that Jo's mom gave her?! Hahaha, then Anzai messaged me and all. So walked to Orhcard point. Anzai picked us up. Went Mt Faber. He was speeding like shit when going up Mt Faber cause he competting his friend?

Slacked around there then yeah went to West Coast. Played around, I climbed up the spider web thingy. And I realised I was so high up and I wanted to diee. Anzai and co are damn funny. They always make my day :D Then yeah they sent me and Jo to Clementi after that. Wanted to send Jo home but she brought the wrong keys out? Jo's damn dumb, I swear. Then went BPP. Sat at macs for quite some time. Then we took a bus to Marina to pass time. Thennn she went to her aunt's place, then I went home.

Changed, went to bed straight away.

2006-11-17T21:21:00.000-08:00

I just can't stop crying. I'm sorry, everyone.

2006-11-17T02:18:00.001-08:00

I know its worth fighting for

I'm thinking of getting an electric drumset. I'm sick of my acoustic one. I don't even know how to tune it. By the way, Jo came over yesterday. Watched BOO. & some other television programmes. Then went to the park. She played the swing, and I watched. I couldn't see the stars. I need to get a new specs soon. Then sat around. Jo went off at around eleven pm.

Take care of your stomach please! Oh and Jo's going KL tomorrow :/ Okay la have fun Jo.

Chatting with DEE now. & we were talking bout her blog url :/ http://orgasmclit.blogspot.com HORNY DEE! Orgasm clittoris :/ Fucker, & you're actually working at ESKIBAR? How unfair is that?!

Wayne > But do you need me like how I need you? says:
Okay luh what's your blog url?

Wayne > But do you need me like how I need you? says:
never link me right

*DEE says:
www.orgasmclit.blogspot.com

*DEE says:
you got link me meh?

*DEE says:
whats yours AGAINNNNNNNNN

Wayne > But do you need me like how I need you? says:
WTF HORNY FUCKER

*DEE says:
eh what?!

*DEE says:
HAHAHA

Wayne > But do you need me like how I need you? says:
ORGASMCLITORIS RIGHT

Wayne > But do you need me like how I need you? says:
HAHAHA

Wayne > But do you need me like how I need you? says:
ORGASMCLIT -_-

*DEE says:
you thought it that WAY

*DEE says:
;p

Wayne > But do you need me like how I need you? says:
IT IS THAT WAY, HORNY FUCKER

*DEE says:
WHO AINT HORNY

Wayne > But do you need me like how I need you? says:
Hahahaha okay fine thats true.

& we continued and continued.

Okay thenn...

*DEE says:
So sweeet LAH OK

*DEE says:
HOLD HER TIGHT

*DEE says:
dont let her go

Yeah I know, I won't let go okay. Thanks, DEE! (:

2006-11-17T02:18:00.000-08:00

I know its worth fighting for

Take care of your stomach please! Oh and Jo's going KL tomorrow :/ Okay la have fun Jo.

Chatting with DEE now. & we were talking bout her blog url :/ http://orgasmclit.blogspot.com HORNY DEE! Orgasm clittoris :/

Wayne > But do you need me like how I need you? says:
Okay luh what's your blog url?

Wayne > But do you need me like how I need you? says:
never link me right

*DEE says:
www.orgasmclit.blogspot.com

*DEE says:
you got link me meh?

*DEE says:
whats yours AGAINNNNNNNNN

Wayne > But do you need me like how I need you? says:
WTF HORNY FUCKER

*DEE says:
eh what?!

*DEE says:
HAHAHA

Wayne > But do you need me like how I need you? says:
ORGASMCLITORIS RIGHT

Wayne > But do you need me like how I need you? says:
HAHAHA

Wayne > But do you need me like how I need you? says:
ORGASMCLIT -_-

*DEE says:
you thought it that WAY

*DEE says:
;p
Wayne > But do you need me like how I need you? says:
IT IS THAT WAY, HORNY FUCKER

*DEE says:
WHO AINT HORNY

Wayne > But do you need me like how I need you? says:
Hahahaha okay fine thats true.

& we continued and continued.

Okay thenn...

*DEE says:
So sweeet LAH OK

*DEE says:
HOLD HER TIGHT

*DEE says:
dont let her go

Yeah I know, I won't let go okay. Thanks, DEE! (:

2006-11-15T15:13:00.000-08:00

http://www.poisonkiss-.blogspot.com
Hahaha.

2006-11-13T23:45:00.000-08:00

Morning always comes too quick when you're around.

You leave me lying here so they don't find us out, they'll find us out.

Tear me open at the seams, take everything you need.

Take my heart if you like the beat,

take my lungs if it's hard to breathe.

Jo came over today (: Watched House Of Wax and another movie with her, then buddy came (: Jo left in the evening, then I went to fag with buddy. Went to have dinner. Okay I didn't eat. I'm losing my appetite ): I eat really really little now. Not even one meal a day, haha. Then went to the park to talk (: Buddy's still the best :D Then she went off at seven forty, to meet jie. So I went home.

I'm going to hospital this wednesday. Who wants to come with me?

I can't feel my fingers now ):

always.

2006-11-12T22:39:00.000-08:00

And I've been thinking about leaving since the day that we met

'Cause if I don't get close when it's all over I'll just forget

'Cause I have seen the end so many times I've played it in my mind

And I am scared to death I never want to see your dark side

I should have known not to fall so deep

But its all too late

A scream or a cry, the truth or a lie?

I just want to hold you, every night.

I, miss you.

2006-11-12T22:30:00.001-08:00

Saturday,

Went town to meet Zhaopian (: Walked around Cineleisure, met bro, then wen tto the arcade. Ddr-ed a little, then went K pool with Jo, Lyanne, bro, Cookie, Zhaopian, and a friend. Opened two tables, then Nat came. Went Rocky's after pool. Talked, fagged, then decided to go PS to watch The Guardian. Drummed a little, Sj came, then went for the movie. Bro and Sj went to PS' Rocky's cause they didn't get the movie tickets. First row, I wanted to puke. It was really damn sucky. Half an hour before the movie ended, me, Nat, and Zhaopian went out cause we couldn't take it. They went to play some kids' thingy and the thing that moves on the floor. I think its damn cute and I want to buy it to travel around my house. Then we went to Rocky's to look for bro and Sj. Fagged a little, Cookie and Jo came down, then Nat skated to skate park (my poor skates)

Don't ask me what I want from you

Cause you know that

I just want to make you mine

Sorry Jo, for attituding you for the whole of yesterday. Jo went off when we reached the skate park. Nat and bro left after a little while. So yeah I wanted to practice grinding so I was shifting this platform that weighs more than 100kg, with Sj, and yeah I crushed my fingers, cause I didn't let go of it when Sj let it go. Its was freaking painful. Cookie went to get bandages, cream, and water. I swear I wanted to die. Anzai and co came and it was still bleeding. It bled for four hours non stop. I realised my nails were coming off and one of my fingers' flesh was splitting so Cookie called my mom to meet us at the hospital. Anzai and co drove us to the hospital and they waited until I was out. Thanks guys (: Went for X-ray, had five injections, twelve stitches, and I've got fractured bone. Took out my nails cause they're dead alr. Doctor did something to it and stitched it back to my finger. I was trembling like shit when he was doing my fingers. When I came out Cookie was so amazed by my hand and she even took a picture. My hand looks like a pig's hand.

Then Anzai and co left. Zhaopian and Cookie came to my place. Slept, woke up cause I was in pain :/ Then ate my medicine, tried to sleep but couldn't. Slept for quite some time, then they left at eight something pm.

Thankyou Anzai and co, Zhaopian and Cookie for waiting for me (:

2006-11-10T00:36:00.000-08:00

Hey chew toy head

you're swollen and disfigured

If I stretch out your face do you feel

any bigger

If I piss in your eyes will you

will you see

That you think that you are

so much better than me

Wednesday, rushed out when I received ZhaoPian's call. Cheer up okay, I'm always here. Then walked around and talked. Elle came down, and we went to Cineleisure. Met Kenny, slacked around, then went off at ten something. Went to Elle's place. Ate, then went to sleep. Woke up the next morning, Elle decided not to go to work so yeah slept somemore. Then woke up, got ready, cabbed to town. Sent Elle for lesson and I waited for her. Bro came to look for me (: Drummed a little, then went Cineleisure. Sat at Rockys for a while then bro went off. Me and Elle went to walk around. Then went back to PS. Walked around, drummed a little, then some things happened, sent Elle to Clementi. Then I went home.

We made it last for fourteen months but now I think its over.

Take care, Elle.

& I need to skate! I think stunt bike's quite cool. I think my skates are giving up on me. They sound weird after I cleaned them ): Skating on friday(later) anyone? Or saturday? I want new wheels, new barrings, new frames. Okay I want new skates but my skates are quite new. I'm starting to dislike my skates okay I still have to love them they cost me a bomb. I hope it doesn't rain on friday(later) or one saturday.

I dreamed that I was you

I dreamed your ego died

Said who loves you more than I do

I know you lied

I'll bask in your forever

Fucking waste of time

Angels fuck and devils screw

2006-11-07T17:37:00.001-08:00

Standing on my doorstep in the rain.

Make up running down your face.

You look so good right now.

It's bittersweet that you run to me.

I need you, I bleed you,

I would give up breathing for you,

if you would take my breath and hold it in.

I need to be inside of you.

Jo came over yesterday to pass me my stuffs and yeah she kept playing with my toy atm machine :/ 19 years old already still like that. Jo's as deprived as me. Then Jo went off, so I went to VivoCity to meet Nat. Walked around, saw Sj and friend. Talked a little, then they went off. Nat and I went to supermarket. I love supermarkets (: Then we ate at this chicken rice place. Went Harbourfront to meet Elle. Then Nat left. Went Yoshinoya to watch Elle eat. Then, off to Elle's place.

Show me where it hurts.

Show me what love's done to you.

Don't try to move, you'll only make it worse than it is already.

You had to be so strong and I had to be so useless.

I'm always fuckin' useless, useless without you.

Slept really early. &, Wayne&Elle patched (: Woke up at seven something the next morning, got ready, sent baby to work. I stayed there for three hours watching her. Baby's a promoter! (: Then mommy came down cause her office is just beside the place baby's working at. Mommy bought me an Abercrombie shirt, then me and mommy went to have lunch, then she left. Waited for a little while more, then I cabbed home. Bro came over for a little while (: I helped her to cut her hair and I swear it looks damn nice now and I like it a lot. That's the hairstyle that I wanted, but too late, my hair's gone. Then bro went off. But Nat insisted on coming and bro couldn't stop her so they gave me a surprised :/ Nat played my drums, and I hope they're fine still. Then they went off after like, fifteen minutes.

Tears ran down your face like rain on the window you were looking out.

What were you looking for?

I won't ask tonight.

I need this, just one kiss, a gentle touch, your sweet caress.

My heart will break my ribs if I hold this in.

I must confess.

Baby might be coming over for dinner. I hope she's coming cause I'm going to prepare dinner. Baby's still at work ): Shall blog later, I'm going to irritate my little one.

I hate myself for needing this.

I love our twisted little mess.

I know it's wrong but it just feels right.

The taste of tears is bittersweet tonight.

2006-11-07T17:37:00.000-08:00

Standing on my doorstep in the rain.

Make up running down your face.

You look so good right now.

It's bittersweet that you run to me.

I need you, I bleed you,

I would give up breathing for you,

if you would take my breath and hold it in.

I need to be inside of you.

Show me where it hurts.

Show me what love's done to you.

Don't try to move, you'll only make it worse than it is already.

You had to be so strong and I had to be so useless.

I'm always fuckin' useless, useless without you.

Tears ran down your face like rain on the window you were looking out.

What were you looking for?

I won't ask tonight.

I need this, just one kiss, a gentle touch, your sweet caress.

My heart will break my ribs if I hold this in.

I must confess.

Baby might be coming over for dinner. I hope she's coming cause I'm going to prepare dinner. Baby's still at work ): Shall blog later, I'm going to irritate my little one.

I hate myself for needing this.

I love our twisted little mess.

I know it's wrong but it just feels right.

The taste of tears is bittersweet tonight.

2006-11-05T23:50:00.000-08:00

Romance left this place long ago

If these walls could talk

Then they'd tell me it's time to go

Cabbed to town yesterday, went to get a haircut, then bought a jacket (share) Then went to meet Jo and Lyanne at Cineleisure, arcade. Ddr-ed, drove my truck, then went to get movie tickets for The Grudge 2. It was damn scary, and I was shivering. Ate chicken baked rice in the theatre though. Cookie was sleeping, Nat was doing don't know what, I think Lyanne only watched half the show, Jo watched the whole freaking show. & I'm really proud of myself. I finished the whole show (: Buddy and 'jie' watched the show too. Same theatre. After the show, 'jie' came to scare me ): Then we went to the arcade. Played a little, then off to Spinelli. Fagged, drank, talked (: Went back to Cineleisure, walked around, then, buddy and 'jie', Jo, Cookie went off. So me and Nat went skatepark to meet my friends, Anzai and co. Didn't bring my skates ): So I borrowed their's. I still think Anzai's damn pro, and he's damn cute. Went home at six am. Reached home, bathed, slept at seven plus am. Woke up at six pm.

As we kiss,

Knowing that it's our last one

Pull the sheets from the mattress,

Sleep hasn't found us

Tear the curtains from the window

Let the world see this last dance

My chest is hurting now ): Going Bugis tomorrow with Nat to check some stuffs (: I made my mom sad. My atm had four digits around one to two weeks ago. Now, it has only two digits ): Holidays are here, there won't be work ): Shall blog later if I have to mood to, BYE!

Someone else can hang pictures over the holes in the walls.

Duck and take cover from the screams in the hall.

Sing you to sleep when you're hurt from the fall

And somehow I will miss this... all

2006-11-05T22:42:00.000-08:00

Few days ago, Lyanne's place! (:

2006-11-04T15:16:00.000-08:00

My throat is sore from pleading.

I don't feel much like singing tonight.

If I can stop the bleeding I know that I will be alright.

Went to court on Tuesday. Waited for nine freaking hours there. Then went somewhere. Went to court on Wednesday, Waited for three hours, then went to chalet. Bought pink Crocs for Cookie. Bought cake, poppers, and balloons. Slacked at the chalet, surprised Cookie at twelve am though all the candles melted. HAPPY BIRTHDAY COOKIE (: Though its the 4th now. Stayed over, went somewhere the next day. Went home on friday, changed, went to Lyanne's place. Ddr-ed like mad, played piano, cam-whored. I think I look like L in some pictures -_- Then went to Nat's place. Then cabbed to Cookie's hostel to pass her a gift from Nat. Surprised her, then watched some shows, then I went to sleep. Cookie sent Nat home and she's still at Nat's place and I'm at her hostel alone and they took my lighter away. But I found one here, luckily. Jo and Lyanne's waiting in town for us and I'm waiting for Nat and Cookie.

You said I always sang too loud to sing you a love song.

Well I save my soft voice for the things I really mean.

You always said I had a hard time saying what's on my mind.

Well, here it goes: I hate you for what you've done to me.

& fuck you faker. I won't forget what you've done you fucking faker. What a friend of mine.

2006-10-29T19:47:00.000-08:00

You roll the dice

Release my hell

Rebel in eyes that will never tell

To me you're not the only one to feel redemption

Saturday

Met Ruth at seven thirty pm, Skatepark. She was late for twenty minutes. Then Nat and Cookie came. Skated a little, then Nat and Cookie went to Cineleisure, Hong Kong Cafe cause they were hungry. They brought our shoes there :/ Me and Ruth skated to Cineleisure. Took off skates, walked to Hong Kong Cafe only with our socks on, haha. I splurged on food again.. Then Jo came. Went arcade, and I spent quite a lot there. I drove my truck! :D I still think its damn fun. & ddr-ed until I wanted to die. Then we went to buy movie tickets for The Prestige. Bought for buddy too (: Then went outside Cineleisure to meet buddy. Some things happened and I don't wish to mention so yeah went for the movie. It was a nice show, just that Jo was being damn irritating! After movie, Jo left. Me, buddy, Nat, and Cookie went to Skate park. They watched me skate. & me and buddy talked! (: Nat and buddy left after a while. So me and Cookie went to make friends with two good skaters. Friendly guys (: Skated with them, Cookie watched. They left after a while. So me and Cookie went Coffee Club to eat. The girl that served us is really nice (: She gave us free ice mocha. Haha, then cabbed home at six plus am.

Prophecies merge into seeds

Growing only to crush our dreams

So let down your game

Supposed to go Bedok police station today but I was feeling sick. So the officer came down to my place :/ Signed some things and I have to go court on Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday for some shit thing.

& I need to tune my drums! They sound weird..

I don't know if there's work tomorrow.

I wanna go skatepark!

And I think, goodbye for now.

I left my soul behind

I grew my conscience blind

Loved myself too much, to handle the truth

2006-10-28T17:30:00.000-07:00

If you go then I'll forget you.
When you're gone I won't miss you.
I'm sorry that's just the way I've learned to deal with a broken heart

My drums are finally here (: Might be going skate park later. I want to get a new skateboard! & Salom(?!) skates. I need to learn grinding. & going down stairs :/ I have tuition later, but I'm not going. I'll go tomorrow. Might be going holland too.

Few drops left of my hope

I bleed in the name of faith

Decisions I've made, decisions of fools

Why am I bleeding for you

Mommy ate my food when I was helping to fix the drums ):

She drank my tea too ):

Oh, and I brought my dogs for injections today.

They kept shivering.

Missing the one who gave me nothing

The one who dreamed my dreams away

Flaming pride in your eyes

Out of the ashes I'll build mine

Reason and feelings will never meet in me

Why am I bleeding for you

I couldn't live life like you could

I'm still the one misunderstood

I couldn't be the dream,

the lonely heart to seal your scheme

I couldn't live the life you love

2006-10-28T03:00:00.000-07:00

Through the darkness and broken glass,

I'll come for you,

if you only ask,

And there I'll stand,

Just for you.

Thursday

Cabbed to Queensway shopping centre to get new lip studs. Only got two in the end. Then cabbed to town to meet Jo and Cookie. Went Vil'lage to eat. I'm spending a lot on food. Even when I'm not hungry :/ Ate steak and sausages, drank wine with Cookie. Then went Spinelli. Drank fagged, took pictures. Went Cine, played at the arcade, then bought movie tickets for Deathnote. While waiting for the movie to start, we went to Coke Red Lounge. Took pictures. Then went for the movie. The movie's not bad. Second part is coming out soon (: I kept whacking the both of them in the theatre. And I whacked Cookie's specs off so she couldn't see for fifteen minutes. &&, I CAUGHT JO SLEEPING IN THE THEATRE LIKE WTF. I bit both of them though. Now I'm addicted to biting people. After the movie, went Maestro Bistro for dessert. Then cabbed back to Cookie's hostel. Dropped Jo off. Yeah fagging marathon though :/ I slept at one something. Cookie slept at four something. And she slept on the floor! Cause she didn't want to wake me up. Aww, how sweet :D

For your name,

I'm calling,

For our love,

I'm falling on my knees.

Woke up, fagging marathon -_- Then Cookie went out for a while. And I was damn bored, and was talking to Nat so I asked her over. She had a hard time looking for the place though. She came over, and I was talking to 'mommy' online (: I LOVE YOU MOMMY (: I miss you so much ): Slacked a little, called a cab, then cabbed to town. Met Sj, went to arcade, then bought movie tickets for Silk. We went to buy snacks cause Cookie brought a bag. So we smuggled snacks in, and a lot of Yakult. The show is nice, not that scary. After the movie, Sj went off. Me, Nat, and Cookie went Spinelli, then took a cab to VivoCity. Bought a lot a lot of food, then went Sky Park to eat. Played in the water, had fun. Nat left like eleven something. Then me and Cookie went to the arcade. Played a little, then me and Cookie went off.

And I'm finally at home (:

I keep spending a lot nowadays :/

And if you cry,

I'll hold your head up high,

I'll be there by your side,

I will be your guardian angel.

I will do the things that I can to light your life and see your smile,

and it breaks my heart in two..

2006-10-26T14:07:00.000-07:00

maybe you're thinking too much, asshole.

piece of shit.

i'll live my life better than your's, fucker.

2006-10-26T12:15:00.000-07:00

Because, I can see us holding hands

Walking on the beach, our toes in the sand

I can see us on the country side

Sitting in the grass laying side by side

You can be my baby

Let me make you my lady

Girl you amaze me

Ain't gotta do nothin crazy

See all I want you to do is be my love

wednesday

Cookie came over on tuesday night. Cabbed to work with Cookie at around six fifteen am. Reached there, unpacked things, placed them on the carpet. Coached Mayflower Primary yesterday. Coaching was fun, packing was a terror. Fucking stubborn students. I wanted to throw them down. Haha, tried S boarding(?!) quite fun. Matthew thought me how to go down stairs on blades. And her thought me how to do Salom(?!) But my blades are not for Salom(?!) I want to get Salom(?!) skates. Fagged quite a lot though :/ Me and Cookie left at three thirty pm. Cabbed to Harbourfront for Sakae. After eating, I cabbed home, Cookie took bus. Slept at six pm? Cause I was damn tired. Missed work today, cause my sis didn't wake me up when I asked her to. So I woke up at ten something am today. SORRY COOKIE ):

(I drank a lot of water yesterday and ate a lot of fags)

Meeting JosephineChloeOngWeiyu and Sj later (:

&& my drum's coming on saturday! :D

BUDDY I MISS YOUUUUUUUUUUUUU ):

2006-10-24T21:37:00.000-07:00

yesterday's photos.

After biting Jo ):

2006-10-23T22:21:00.000-07:00

I wish I could surrender my soul

Shed the clothes that became my skin

Went out to meet buddy and Jo today. Buddy was late for fifteen minutes and Jo was late for freaking forty minutes :/ Went to walk around and all. Waited for daddy to come to make my atm card. He came, then made it, then he went home. Went Toys'R'Us :D & I'm still deprived of childhood. Got hungry, wanted to eat at Sushi Tei, Vivocity, but couldn't find it. Went harbour, wanted to eat at Sakae, but it was damn crowded. So went Noodle Hut. Ate quite a lot (: Then went back to Vivocity. Went to the Sky Park. Sat down, talked a lot, took pictures then went to walk around again. Went back to Sky Park, sat down at the beach-like thing. Went to play with water, and I threw Jo's slippers to the other side of the beach thingy. Luckily I wasn't wearing slippers. Slacked a litte, then went to buy cakes for mommy and daddy. Cabbed home, and here I am. I need to pack my room later cause my drumset's coming tomorrow! (Okay, my cousin's lending me his drumsets cause he's afraid that I'll lose interest in it really soon) Then I'll buy my own drumset soon (: Gotta go my aunt's place tomorrow for Hari Raya. Then to my cousin's place (:

Shall update photos later. HAPPY DAYYY (:

(Jo says I'm pretty hahahahaha shit you.)

can't believe you're such a person.

2006-10-22T23:15:00.000-07:00

Relax your mind take your time with me
I'll love you deeper if you cry for me

Daddy's birthday today (: Ordered food cause daddy didn't want to go out. After eating dinner, went church with mom. It wasn't one hour, it was one hour and forty minutes today ): I almost died in church. Then went to Vivo city. I wasn't in the walking-around mood so went home after

a very short while. And I found this nice place in Vivo city! Went home, ate, went online.

You just made me hate you even more. Somehow, I can't believe you're such a person though I've known you for so long. I thought you were different from others, but I was wrong. & I thought you knew me, you could understand me, but I was wrong, again. You're taking away my friends, you're always taking away my friends. & all I want is to get you out of my life. Carry on with your life, I won't give a single fuck anymore.

Anyway, I might be meeting Jo tomorrow. She wants to watch movie, but I want to go to Sentosa. Yeah, see you Jo! If possible. Goodnight people.

2006-10-21T19:22:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I get the feeling she's watching over me.

And other times I feel like I should go.

friday

went out to meet mom at cityhall, 630pm. went to look at drumsets, and i still prefer the brand Pearl. went to eat a bit, then mom sent me to town. met nat and family, then my mom went off. went to this japanese restaurant for dinner at far east shopping centre. i only ate a litte. it was quite nice. then me and nat went off to bro's house area. i brought my skates though. talked a little, borrowed her skateboard and cabbed to nat's place. when we stepped into her room, we saw a live crab crawling around and nat kept screaming :/ left the crab there cause we didn't dare to touch it. she changed, then we went to skate at like twelve plus one am. buddy came :D just to look for me :D i love you buddy! i missed my buddy a lot, and i finally got to see her. went to have supper, then i had bad stomachache. must be the food :/ and i almost died. && NAT CAN'T SKATE FOR NUTS hahaha she went straight into the drain. hahaha. then went back to nat's place. bathed, then i went to rest. slept, then buddy had to leave. SORRY BUDDY, i didn't send you off, i was too tired. i woke up at nine plus am cause nat took up a lot, a lot of space. so i didn't want to sleep anymore. went online, saw jo online, so asked her to come over. then yeah it was quite fun. hahaha then i went to sleep. when i woke up i saw maple :/ hahaha then yeah slacked a little then they went town and i went home.

saturday

reached home, watched television. it was America's Top Dog. the dogs are super smart. but my dogs? :/ then mommy and sis came home. i prepared dinner. sis went out so had dinner with mom and dad. more like had dinner with mom :/ it was nice.

i'm talking to C is for Cookie now. maybe going skating later..

i feel like drinking :/

tomorrow's daddy birthday! (:

2006-10-19T19:20:00.000-07:00

What about that situation
All night procrastination
Leading to the point when you lead her to her door
There is nothing left there to say
I guess you best be on your way
But before you go you've got to do that chore

i was hungry and i was craving for crabs so i drew it and it made me feel worse.

then my friend saw my display picture, so she went to draw a fish to keep my crab company.

couldn't see the fish when i put as my display picture so i asked her to draw a starfish.

she was bored so she drew a turtle.

my crab has many friends now, haha.

then i drew this for bro (:

then bro drew this (:

i love bro, always.

2006-10-19T12:38:00.000-07:00

At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are never coming home
Never coming home
Could I, should I

got my results back and its damn depressing ):
i'm an emo shithead.

i miss seeing bro almost everyday ):
all the best for your exams bro (:
i love you, always.

And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I, should I
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me

2006-10-18T23:20:00.000-07:00

prints taken on friday.

2006-10-18T20:49:00.000-07:00

I'm unashamed, I'm gonna show my scar

i came home from chalet today, at pasir ris. it was a nice place but it was fucking boring and i kept sleeping. took cab with cookie, dropped her off at eunos, then went home. the uncle went the wrong way so the cab fare was about twenty three bucks. i didn't bring my keys so i rushed home. k no one was home so i fucking waited for four hours outside my house listening to my dogs barking. then my sis came.

today's a fucking bad day but i finally got to talk to bro (:
&,
bye elle, i'll miss you.

why didn't i die.
she was my stranger lover.

2006-10-14T02:30:00.000-07:00

it was painful to see you in coma
it was painful to see you half paralysed
it was painful to see you trying to grab my hand when you couldn't see me
it was painful to be by your side just to watch you go
it was painful to feel you turn cold

and i'd do anything to get you back.

it has been two years and i'm still not over it
the pain is too much.
i miss having you here

i've been missing you, and i still miss you

2006-10-14T01:22:00.000-07:00

Too many fakers, too many liars

i'm feeling so emo now and i don't know what to do bout it. it has been so long since i cried like this. i'm so stressed and.. sigh i don't know. i don't want to get back my results, i don't want to face another disappointment. and i decided to not stay out today cause i just wanted to come home. everything's so screwed up. there's no one to help me. i just want to fly to australia now and forget bout every single thing here. i've been thinking for the whole day. this place is not where i want to be and i wanna start my life afresh. wayne's not wayne anymore. i'm trying too hard.

i've made too many mistakes and i know i'll never forgive myself.

till then we'll meet again '
bye world.

2006-10-13T12:28:00.000-07:00

okay since Jo blogged nice things bout me, i shall blog nice things bout her too (haha)
okay i'm meeting Jo sooooooooooooooooooooooooooon and i'm going to scare the hell out of her while watching movie (okay that didn't really sound nice) okay Jo's nice, she's always cheering me up :/ cause i'm so emo. but i'm nicer. i searched for pictures for her and i faxed her a prata cause she was hungry but she didn't receive ): & i still think i'm nicer hahaha. aiya i can't think of anything nice bout her now i shall blog more nice things bout her when i come home.

okay this is for Jo,
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all,
even if saving you sends me to heaven.

(as a friend k) hahaha i love jo (:

2006-10-13T07:49:00.000-07:00

my sis is such a sucker

me: hahaha eh fucker you're late for school.
sis: eh why didn't you wake me up!
me: EH i was jumping on your bed at 6:30am to wake you up, but you scolded me.
sis: huhhhhhhhhh.. really.. oh okay..

then she went back to sleep :/ tskk.

C is for cookie, cookie cookie cookie.

& bro i miss you!